the light at the end of the tunnel is the train.

???

2008-04-12T09:55:00.000-07:00

I wanna go to a place where I can leave all my doubts. And never come back.

note to self

2008-03-12T11:35:00.000-07:00

i'm really not in the mood to blog today, tomorrow's not looking good either. but i checked my page and saw how lifeless it is. have to do something to make it "updated" albeit there's really nothing to update. you know, i think blogging is not for me anymore. i lost the passion. some years back, i remember i would blog more than once a day - becuase it was just so new to me and i wanted to make it a nice thing for me. but now, i dont know why i still keep this blog - i dont even know why i'm keeping it.

when will i cut my hair?

2008-03-04T11:42:00.001-08:00

NEVER!!!!!!!!

What Tha!

2008-03-03T09:27:00.000-08:00

Okay, I was at Kona Grill in Scottsdale Fashion Square yesterday for lunch (late lunch actually) and seated on the bar so that I can watch TV and wouldn't look so lonely if I had the table or booth on my own. So, I was there, minding my own business and then a couple of girls sat next to me. They ordered susi and when they ate it, I was like in awe. I wanted to laugh but I tried to stop it. These girls ate their sushi with their hands like they were chicken fingers. Is it just me or americans really pick their sushi with their hands and not with chopsticks? Because there were chopsticks in there. It's the first time I saw someone eat sushi that way.

Re-ignited passion

2008-03-01T11:58:00.000-08:00

I'm watching the Tyson cup right now and it re-activated my dream of playing in the Olympics and winning the game - whatever game it maybe. Gymnastics? Why not? As long as I get a gold medal. You know, I've never been into sports. I was never interested. But there is a part of me that I think is a closet athletic person. So many things I want to do, but sadly they remain up there in my mind.

I can already hear Britney sing: WHY DON'T YOU DO SUMTHIN'!!!

Potter Quotes

2008-02-29T11:30:00.000-08:00

It is not our abilities that show what we truly are. It is our choices

-Dumbledore

cry baby

2008-02-11T08:13:00.001-08:00

I was watching Happy Feet on HBO last Saturday night and I cried. Yeah, I cried. I only cry to movies that are happy. I can't remember crying over a drama film, it never happened to me not even once. Thing is, happy moments are more cryable, like If someone finally made what they aimed for or something like that. But that's just me.

okay, so it's in the news...

2008-02-08T10:57:00.000-08:00

Jun Lozada or Lozano or whatever surfaced and he's got very interesting stories to tell. I watched the guy in tv for two days, first from his press conference in LaSalle Greenhills and second in the Senate. The first time I heard him tell his story, I believed him. I thought he is sincere in trying to make a difference. But I thought wrong. The guy has a history of corruption and he's been doing it before - he's "commissioning" also (with the wife). I don't think the guy is doing a heroic act - like putting himself in danger for the sake of trying to make the truth be known. Well, the truth is or will be exposed in the long run, but THAT is not his main objective. Revealing what ever it is that was a secret is only a result of his own selfish act. He found himself in deep shit and wanted to get away from it, which is through the senate. This is his last resort. He is in a position where there is no turning back. I noticed when he was being interviewed/asked/interrogated by the senators, he is enjoying it all. The guy loves ATTENTION. I thought the was for real, I but I was wrong. I'm sure he also earned some millions from that ZTE deal. It's just like he's trying to hide his soiled hands behind his back and pretending to be clean.

6 Things

2008-01-28T11:09:00.000-08:00

I'm so happy Novak Djokovic won the Australian Open. He kicked Roger's ass BIGTIME!
I so love Avril's Hot. It's fluxxe-ish to me.
Speaking of Fluxxe, I miss it so much - might be there this Thursday.
It's my birthday on the 30th - no party this time around.
I want to dye my hair blonde.
I'm praying so hard for IOM.

RIP Heath Ledger

2008-01-25T05:49:00.000-08:00

RIP Brad Renfro

2008-01-17T09:05:00.000-08:00

<3
kenny

I Have One Subscriber

2007-12-27T05:54:00.000-08:00

I'm so happy!! Somebody finally subscribed to my youtube videos although I don't make a lot (Most of the time, I just watch). So cool.

xmas

2007-12-21T06:05:00.000-08:00

wow, only a few days to go and it's christmas.. how nice. this is the best time of the year. everyone is so generous.

my memory is FAILING

2007-12-12T06:07:00.000-08:00

is this part of growing up? first i thought i lost my nwa membership card and then i found it, i also thought my camera's charger's cable got lost but then I found it, and now, MY ATMs are all gone. I remember last saturday i took them out of my wallet because I didn't want to bring them to Divisoria and now I can't find them. Oh my god, this is crazy. I hate it.

lost and found-ish

2007-12-05T06:08:00.000-08:00

okay, i found my northwest airlines' world perks membership card. one more to go - my camera's battery charger's cable. i better find that shit because i cannot charge my batteries if i won't.

i have a weird feeling that someone (in the office) likes me and if my feelings are correct, i can like that person, too. LOL

lost in space

2007-12-04T06:54:00.000-08:00

i cannot find two things. one is the cable of my camera's battery charger and the other one is my northwest airlines' world perks membership card. crap. i cannot find them. the most annoying part is that i know i placed them somewhere so that they won't get misplaced or something. and look what happened. oh boy!

nada titolo

2007-12-03T11:15:00.000-08:00

i am not happy with my job but i cannot quit. it's like, if i leave, who's gonna do the work? my dislike towards the person i solely work with is as infinite as Pi.

fluxxe thursday

2007-11-29T11:51:00.000-08:00

i think this is the only day in my lifetime (or in my memory) that a real and official curfew was imposed. it's really not something to be happy about especially for me who likes going out at night. this day is a sad day here in makati, i think trillanes should just die or vanish. he thinks he's doing the country a favor but in reality, he's not. he's only making things more ugly. this is only one of the reasons why i don't like my own country - politics or should i say, the politicians.

looks like i'm gonna be wearing braces again. yeah. i can already see my self wearing them, but this time i'll make sure i wont have them for morethan a year.

When it Rains, You need and Umbrella, ella, ella.

2007-11-14T13:43:00.001-08:00

Oh my God, I'm so confused.. I don't know if I should pursue this job I have now or not. Clearly, things aren't working, and I am really sorry for my boss, she expects a lot from us. Is there a way to turn things around like in an instant? crap. we are so close to being in crisis. I have a job offer and even if I accept it, I cannot leave the company I am working for currently. I mean, after everything they did for me? I don't want to be an ungrateful bitch.

Novembest

2007-11-09T06:27:00.001-08:00

It's only a few days before xmas and decorations are starting to show. since last year, i made a promise, or a commitment that i will do the christmas decorations of my mom's christian church which i do not attend to. last year, with a super limited budget (out of my own pocket, of course), the decors we're not so fab but since i can only buy so much and it was really late to put up christmas decors then, plus, i only have my self to do everything. no help at all. i am not complaining because i promised i will do it and i love doing it. the only regret i had was the budget i am working on. this year, it's different, i came up with a plan, a theme, a budget and i have the time to do it. i also have assistants. i feel so good now. i know the designs will be nice and i just hope the pastor and his wife will love it.

on another subject matter, since i am now debt-free, i can do things that i always wanted, like, going to french class, bikram yoga, and of course buy the gadgets i always wanted. life is so good!!

Another Goal Achieved

2007-10-27T17:57:00.000-07:00

Finally, I am now debt-free. Woot!

Re-Direction

2007-10-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking about what I did with my life for the past seven years (I did not include the first 20 years of my life since I'm not in control) and I came to a thought that my life has been pretty boring. I mean I could have been living my dreams now, but I'm not. Rather, I'm stuck here in Makati working unhappily. I know there is still time; what I want to do going forward is to start all over again. I will lay out my plans for my life, like what kind of lifestyle I want and which city I want to live in (which is NYC) and then think of plans on how to put them into reality. This is that moment. The start of my DETOUR.

I am currently working on several applications for a post graduate degree in the US and when I get accepted in the school I chose, that's super close to my dreams. NOW is the time to act. not next year, not in the next two. It's NOW.

Life thoughts

2007-10-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

Life is a cycle of many things. You wait for your hair to grow long, and then cut it, then wait for it to grow again; You gain weight, and then you lose it, and then gain some more so that you have a reason to diet; You spend all your money and be broke and then wait for payday to spend dough again; You wake up and then sleep; Same thing goes for fashion, it all comes back. Everything in this life is all about routine. The only challenge is to not get tired of it. Simple, right?

I Experienced Death

2007-10-04T12:02:00.000-07:00

And it wasn't what we think it's like. Death is the most beautiful thing we could ever experience. Once your eyes are closing, you will hear the most beautiful sound of all. It was amazing. All the pain the you felt, say, you were caught in a car crash, you're gonna die; it's painful, yes, but when you're dead, it's totally a different thing. When you die, it's just the start of a new life. And it's a wonderful thing. At first it's all black, like you are blind and not able to see a thing, but then the sound starts playing. It sounds so different from the usual music we all know. The sound you will hear is like it's for the heart and soul, your ears can haer it, but it's your chest area that is most pleasant. You're floating. Too bad, I was brought back to life and was unable to see what's next. But I'm sure there's a next time.

Umbrella. Ella, ella, ella, ella.

2007-10-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

It's 1:10 in the morning and it's still raining. I don't like it when it rains and I have to go out. It's so inconvenient.

Since I started this new job - my life changed. I sleep in the daytime and work during the night. I'm like a Vampire now. This kind of routine is no good - it keeps you from doing many things. Like going to the mall after work, watching prime time tv shows, etc. And when I need to go to the bank, I've to wait until it opens. I don't like this kind of schedule. It's not good for me. Good thing I have other options but I am not disclosing it to anyone yet.